Memory - Test

Was just reading a book - (and tempted to look at my notes for the names) one chapter relates to a postgrad project of several students who worked together and each one would pick a theme and then speak about it. Afterwards they would write up notes about that experience, those who presented and those who didn't. It was expected people write up in an hour, no more, to stop the self censorship. Interesting, like morning pages and also surrealists.. how do we know what we right is how we feel, what we recall.

Made me comfortable and happy to give myself this again as I worried, after reading some of the notes how badly it was written... who might read it and what they would judge from this. Somehow I seem to have had a few more people read this than I have shared an odd page with..Latvia and Isreal are two areas.

That book was one of 3 I scrimmed earlier, another chunky one called the art of memory. Decided not to take that, due to its weight, its heavy, and full of Greek history on what people did and how and examples across history. It draws me but I can't, don't wish to take all my time up there, however interesting. But would it give me ways of reflecting on how mine works in a historical context and what I could learn from that. I learn with you, through you.

What else today?

Doc lecture and film earlier: PT & Second years
Began with SELF REFLEX FILM - THIN BLUE LINE
I still think its got as much poetry and expos and performative elements as Self Reflexive.

Titles incorperate the thin blue line, as many films I have recently seen, the title visualise and incapsulate the aim and intention of the film. I liked this and thought I might fall asleep in the warmth of the room, and general sleeplessness but it was engaging and the reconstructions worked well as well as the delicious images: The clock, the milkshake thats thrown away, the red light (anger, energy, stop the injustice, circular) repeated and well used. I like the frame within frames of one shot that had us looking into the window framed, and with another frame of the building. I loved the use of text and ECU of typing, it looked beautiful and I want that and have that within 47. Past and present, what you have said and what was done.

The work of the filmmaker was to explore the 'truths', examine them with the camera, through converstion and some previous documentation and in the process of developing relationships unravel the injustice. Within a year Adams was released. The truths that people imagine and have been fed that the moving image, that documentary is the whole truth, as opposed to the constructed, pre determined artifact that it is.

Thought about why re-construct? Take us away from H & S shots, visualise the moment, show not tell. The facts of the case exist in writing but thats not enough to speak and explore with others, visualise it. Breathe in and feed upon it.

I drew shots instead of writing mountains of notes that I do, though I did that too. The process of writing as I hear helps me focus, remember, think, even if I have heard about it. Painfully fast and slow at times..

He was also encouraging us to this arty... what else could this film be about beyond the story, beyond your basic subject. It is a film after all.... I like that, it gives me a pit stop in the battle ground of my mind. I have one heavy part of me that knows that working in the way I would like to will limit the audience.. on another would I be dis honest and going against what I see and feel. I perform resistance daily.. in some many groups and moments... do I wish to create a populist piece on this period? Yes and No, it wouldn't make sense.