Without you

A little time at the LRC looking through emails yesterday till I got down to what I'd done before meeting Anna R. I went over the list I'd sent her and saying some of that out loud was good. Life brings layers together.

Looking at NSSN conference with the hint of cultural additions, Suzanne Muna added her work as there were more connections, more of a relationship and confidence from her about her work. It was already out there, on covers, on flyer's, she was an artist and had work ready for a mobile exhibition. She is also one of the Defend the 4 hounded by Unison out of her role for 2 years. The others I asked maybe felt less engaged with me or with the works or possibility. But I did it with little efforts and other peoples engagement and practical nature.

Memory keeps reoccurring as a underlying theme, area of discussion and investigation. Interesting, or more interesting to me right now as my working memory is of the lowest 10% for my age group. I have been looking at ways round it with others too, but I have memories. What is it I remember? What I feel? but not dates or statistics or detail. I rarely recall all of that but sometimes general ideas around it all - and it comes out in conversation, it gets deeper and better - and clearer. It can often be clearer and I don't know it till if comes out,, whats bubbling under there....what is there but needs space to breathe and mix up itself as we speak, as I speak, as you speak as we listen and see, and see.

So she's happy with the 47, as she feels I am and says work backwards. I like that, its what I tend to do. Set a gallery screening/event date here and maybe one in Liverpool (WOW?).

Its a lot of work and one shoot of 3 days won't be enough, cant be enough. Last 10 minute piece was shot over 5 days. Then 40 was shot in under 3 hours. So its possible but needs incredible planning. I need to know where I am and where we are in all this from to place, we need a clear schedule - separate some people, a little together, a little apart. especially for women away from men. (Wonder why DC said if it was about memories then KM? Are memories seen as less important? Less Objective? If that's what we remember then in some ways it doesn't matter what happened, its only what we have in our minds, consciousness? How do we see the past, feel the past, create a past? How do we articulate it to others? And which others?

I'm not excited, I'll be honest, but scared. Its such a big project, I cant share it all, but I could open the doors of the stories and see.

Without you 47? Maybe title? What would we do without you? What would we have without you? Parks, Homes, Jobs?

To Do by symposium and next tutorial:

1. I page synopsis
2. Schedule backwards & book gallery May 2011
3. Blog - for assessment needs editing and focus on criteria
4. Schedule for shoot and crew
5. Funding plan & Crowd funding model
6. Connect with Red
7. Reading on memory