Am not holding up as well in this as I should but I am. Its interesting and I am connected with you but at the same time I feel like I need to know and I don't. I worry I worry I dont know enough and dont want to let you down, let me down.
Breathe.
Walk.. Dam it Walk!
Move... Chat...Dance...
What?
All those people I am not connected with, expect something of me, I expect something of me and there is not that much there but a desire, a deep burning desire and anxiety which holds me in.
Here and now what will I do? Wash away in the politics of the day? The energy of tomorrow? The collective? Lost or Found? Which one is it? Does it have to be just one of those? I am tired and I have a screening tomorrow.. yes that scares me.. will i make sense. Will you want to see more or less of this, am not sure.
Today, come back. Be in the present. Be here. Our ability to reflect and predict is important in our development as humans but to be present, to enjoy the moment is important, is where apparently we are at our happiest... like having sex. We are at our saddest by a computer. (Move away from the screen dillon, little electrical comfort blanket). Too much too little to late, maybe...
What do I want from her? From this? a space, experiment with forms and ideas..air. Breathe.
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