Madness & sadness (draft after watching HOWL)

The madness and the sadness that follows me

Follows you

I have opened the door and let it in

It is what becomes of them, of me,

It is what is brews in me, what I am

But the maddness is not mine alone

nor sadness that I own

...

I have fed on these for years and fears

and eaten them up like there is no more

and you, each of you I bite,

in kindness, darkness and delight

I have fed on these for fears, for years

and eaten you for light and sight

I eat less today, no need to grieve

on your, on mine, the past, not now

My madness, my sadness

is not mine alone

My madness, my sadness

is not my only home

Fed on you for fears, for tears

torn up, torn blue

turned red, torn through

My madness, your sadness

I held, too tight

this day, this time

I let go, let light..

let light.